Due to an unfortunate series of events, I haven’t been sticking to my diet at all. I’ve done really, really well for the last few months but news piling up on top of itself is taking it’s toll on me.

I recently found out that my grandfather was diagnosed with prostate cancer. Having this in my mind I’m sure it had something to do with the fact that I lost everything in Atlantic City - it royally messed with my concentration. I thought back to my grandmother dying of both breast and lung cancer 12 years ago. Knowing the history of cancer in my family, I know quitting smoking and getting healthier is going to be something I work on as the first priority.

While in Atlantic City I lost around $700, but this is OK considering I purposely saved up that money to lose - as strange as that may sound. Baby and I could have both gotten ourselves a new bed if we’d pooled our money instead of going to A.C. but we had fun just the same. We did do a lot of walking, so the intake of over 1500 calories a day slowly evened itself out. I’m back on my 800 calorie a day diet, I know that doesn’t seem like much but when you’re eating 6 small meals a day - it really works itself out.

Someone recently told me that I should consider gastric bypass. I personally see this as taking the easy way out, or for some people - the final resort. I don’t see the point in going under the knife if I haven’t made any effort to prove this can’t be done without major surgery. It’s my goal to lose 100lbs, which many people have done without going under the knife. If I see that no matter how much work I put into it, that it just won’t happen, then maybe I’ll consider it. For now I’d like to think I have enough will power to get it done by working hard and eating better - but hey, that’s just my theory.