I haven’t been feeling very well lately so keeping myself focused long enough to think about things is beginning to take its toll on me.  Sean and I were approved for two loans so we’ll have more than enough money to get out to Ohio, purchase our new home and then begin any modifications it may need.  The house we’ve decided upon was built in the late 70’s and recently went through a complete overhaul.  This includes everything from a new furnace, a new roof, new copper piping, replacement of all appliances and so on.  We’re unsure of how old the rug is (if it wasn’t recently replaced) and something tells me that there’s going to be cheap wood paneling on the walls - something that will very quickly be painted over if that’s the case.

The kitchen more than likely won’t be as large as one that I’d like but based on the fact that this isn’t going to be a permanent residence for more than five years, it’s something I can handle for the time being.  I’m very good at organizing things and if I have to bring in a butcher block cart in order to gain counter space when I’m cooking then that’s really no big deal to me.

It’s kind of a bittersweet thing for me.  I love the fact that I’ll be out of the apartment life that I’ve been acustomed to for the last 20 years.  I hate the fact that I’m going to be eight hours away from my family.  So while it’s a winning situation, I also feel as though I’m losing out on things.  This is something that I feel I need to do though, no matter how difficult it may be for me.  I’m spending the rest of my life with someone, we’re finally going to be under our own roof, no family, no landlords, we make the rules - we break the rules.  We’ve had practice up to this point,  but it’s just going to be the two of us out there without any kind of outside influence other than his brother stopping in from time to time.  My issue is that we both work from home and the house is only about 900 sqft (at most) so we’ll be on top of each other all day long.  Both of us are worried that things are just going to be difficult but I also know that the two of us are good at working through things.  I’m just going to cross my fingers and be very patient.