I’m unsure as to how it happened but I’ve managed to throw my back out.  For the past couple of weeks it’s been increasingly sore.  Yesterday it felt worse than usual and after laying down for a little while my back completely locked up and won’t unlock no matter what I do.  It’s still bothering the hell out of me today, but that’s more mental than pain.  Yes, I’m in a hell of a lot of pain but I also have a lot of things to accomplish that I don’t see myself getting around to anytime soon.

I have to clean the bedroom, it’s been a week since it was last dusted and when you’ve got black furniture - dust is very noticeable.  I need to do my laundry but that can wait until tomorrow, Sunday is typically Karen’s laundry day.  The kitchen is a wreck, I’d like to do something about that but even standing takes a lot out of me right now.  I’ve got myself propped up in the living room at the moment, I can’t stay in bed - it’s too soft and offering no kind of support right now.

I’m itching to get into the office but with absolutely no chance of lumbar support with my office chair - there’s no way in hell I could sit there long enough to accomplish what I need to do.

This really sucks.

I’m still going pretty strong with my diet. It’s hard to stick to something so structured when everything else in your life is in complete chaos, but when it comes down to it - the diet is the only stability I have at the moment.

I did slack off for a week, but I’m working just as hard on it now as I ever have in the past. I’ve been watching this show “You are what you eat!” it’s on BBC and I’ve found it to be very interesting. After searching around the Internet I was unable to find the detox diet that Gillian (the dietitian) puts these people on. I will wind up getting her book in the future, I know that much. But in 8 months using her plan you can lose up to 3 stone (42-pounds) and that 42 will put me on the path I’d like to go on, as well as give me the detox I need. I think that’s why my diet has been so slow, I never detoxed, I just cut back. I enjoy a diet of fruits and vegetables and I think her plan would give me exactly the right amount of things that I need to get it done the right way.

I got my license taken care of this past Monday so I can now legally drive in Delaware. My big thing is finding a car now, I found one in Jersey that I’d like to go pick up but unfortunately I don’t have the $9,000 at the moment. I have amped up the job search as well as my freelancing, I even shot a letter over to friends, clients and family with new “deals” for design. A lot of people I know have websites, and if I can repush the $30 deal, I should have no problem raising some money over time. I just don’t know how much time I have until the car is gone but I’m still going to keep my fingers crossed and hope for the best.