I don’t like to do a weigh-in every week because the overall progress isn’t too important to me.  I know right now that I’m doing very well on my diet, I’ve changed my life around and now I know that I can handle living this lifestyle.

I started on my diet a little over 1 year ago, since then there have been ups and downs and instances of falling off the wagon.  I’m happy to report that I’ve finally met my  second goal, it took me over a year but I’m now 60 pounds lighter than I was last year.  I’ve hit the 200LB mark and my third goal is to lose another 25 pounds and meet my overall goal-weight of 175.  Now, I know it seems strange to want to stop at a ‘high’ number but I’m not doing this to be super skinny.  I like being curvy - hence the domain name , duh?

I’m doing this to be healthy and I feel that I’ll be at my healthiest by getting down to 175.  Only 25 pounds to go, I figure by the end of the summer I’ll be able to enjoy my 24th birthday with amazing confidence in myself!

Instead of spending $150 on getting this product directly from the company, I’ve bid for it on eBay just so I can get started with this program.  I was unable to locate it anywhere else for a reasonable price and as of right now I’m winning with my bid for $30 on one just posted on eBay this afternoon.  I know it’s no where near what this person spent for it but I’m certain the only reason they’re getting rid of it is because they were unsuccessful at following the program the way it’s laid out for you.

I’ve done a lot of reading, and even joined a forum or two and I’m confident that this program will get me down to my goal weight.  It offers just about everything I need in regards to recipes and exercise so I’ll be able to continue with my already extraordinary weight loss and move full speed ahead to the body I’ve always wanted.

A few people (in real life) have asked me why I’m only going down to a certain weight and I’ve explained to them time and time again that I’m not looking to be a skinny-minnie movie star, I’m looking to be healthy.  I’ve never been a small girl, and I never will be.  While many would consider 150 lbs. to be “fat” I consider it to be the ultimate goal.  I’ll still have some meat on my body, the way nature intended and I’ll be more comfortable in my own skin because there won’t be so much of it.  It has a lot to do with self esteem and I honestly don’t know one person who can say that at 250 lbs. they’re completely comfortable with who they are.  Unless of course they’ve weighed much more than that at one point and time and are working their way down from their highest documented weight.

I’m by no means saying that someone being 250+ lbs. is wrong.  What I’m saying is that it’s wrong for me. So far I’ve lost 60 pounds, bringing me down to the 200lb mark that I haven’t seen since high school.  It’s a great accomplishment for me and losing another 50 pounds to get down to where I truly feel I need to be is something I need to do for myself.  I don’t look down upon anyone at any weight.  I know that no matter what weight you are you’re no where near content with yourself.  Most are looking to be anorexic thin, others want to be toned, some just want to wear a good pair of jeans for once in their life.  No one will ever truly be content with their body and I can honestly say that I don’t know what 150 lbs. is going to be like for me.  Physically speaking I know that it’s an ideal weight for me, especially considering the size of my head (I don’t want to look like a balloon, you know?)  I just think anything smaller, for my body type would look ridiculous.  So what’s the fix?  Get down to where you feel you’ll be comfortable and go from there.  Hell, by the time I reach 180 I may be completely content with myself.  I just know that as of right now 150 is a reachable goal, from my current 200 lb mark to my goal of 150, I may stop along the way and just step back and enjoy the fact that I’ve lost the amount of weight I have and I should be nothing more than proud of myself, and content with how things are going for me.

My life is more enjoyable now.  Clothes feel better, my self esteem has dramatically gone up, as has my energy level and even my relationship with Sean has improved.  What could be better than that?

It’s been a while since I posted here, mainly because the rush of the Holiday Season had my full attention.  It’s now January 1st and it’s been almost one month since I’ve last said anything here about weight loss, dieting, and life in general.  This doesn’t mean I haven’t been busy!

My resolutions are the pretty common ones.  I’m continuing with my diet, stepping it up a notch by going onto an actual plan.  I’m unsure if I’m going to take the route of Weight Watchers or the Micheal Thurmond Six Week Body Makeover, but I do fully intend to take the bull by the horns and get myself onto a set program for even better results.  I’m now 50 pounds lighter than when I started my diet, which was no easy task in six months but I’ve accomplished every one of my goals through dicipline and a complete lifestyle change.

The only thing I haven’t changed is my smoking habit.  I’ve been a pack-a-day smoker for quite some time now and I honestly can not handle it anymore.  I run slower because I can’t catch my breath, no matter how many showers I happen to take during the day I still reek of smoke because it’s the first thing I do when I step outside, even if it’s just to dump the garbage.  I purchased ‘Quit smoking the easy way’ a book that has been around for 20 years and I’m confident that if I follow the methods I’ll not only be thin thanks to my diet, but a non-smoker.

Another resolution added to my list is school.  I’ve decided to go to DeVry.  Sean is helping me with the financial aid forms so that I can insure full financial aid.  I’m under the age of 25 and I’m no longer living with my father.  The only job on the books that I have at the moment is paid blogging and other odd-and-end jobs here and there that I work on the side, so figure I’m only making about $12,000 a year.  That’s no where near enough money to fund school and living - so hopefully I’ll get the financial help.  I’ve been paying taxes for years, the least the government can do is give me something back for it - you know?

The day after Christmas I headed down to the DMV, I’m officially a Delaware resident and almost as soon as I get my license down here Sean wants to move up to New Jersey because it’s the half-way point between our families.  I’m not sure of how much I like the idea but I’m sure we’ll talk about it a bit more over time anyway.

I’m currently up in New York for the holidays.  We came up here on the 29th and I think we’re going to extend our stay for a few extra days.  Originally I was only coming up until Friday but I’m hoping to at least finish out the weekend and leave on Monday.  Sean doesn’t seem to mind so I guess that’s all that matters.

I’ve kind of hit a brick wall when it comes to my ongoing weight loss. While I am very close to my original goal and I’m still eating properly, I’m having a bit of trouble with preforming any real exercise. A few weeks ago, while on one of my regular daily walks I was unaware of a big dip in the road based on the fact that it was filled in with leaves. The step down basically knocked me on my ass and I literally had to call the house to have my hubby come and pick me up off the street a few blocks up. I couldn’t walk and my foot swelled up to about three times the size. I knew it wasn’t broken because I’ve broken and sprained my ankles so many times that I can tell the difference. I’m aware that I have weak ankles due to past experiences so naturally I knew how to treat it. I pulled my aircast out of the closet, pumped it up a little and slapped it on. I’m able to move around but standing up for long periods of time is proving to be difficult for me. Since I’m hunched over from trying to avoid putting too much presser on my foot, I’m finding it hard to keep my back from hurting me as well. So basically it’s a whole series of issues that I hope to clear up as soon as possible. The cast I’ve been using for years is a bit tattered and torn so I’ve been looking into new ankle braces on betterbraces.com. While I was there I began looking into knee braces for Sean because of the water in his knee thanks to an old Wrestling injury in high school. The two of us are literally falling apart, guess we were meant for each other - heh.

An unexpected October heat wave came through Delaware this past week.  While I was still able to accomplish all of my daily routines, this doesn’t mean I was happy about it.  It’s a myth that you lose more weight in the summer than you do in the fall.  I understand that sweating more is good for you but when you’re already feeling dehydrated due to a recent illness, you’re not exactly looking forward to your usual exercise routines.  I’m still doing a few miles a day on the walking front.  I will say that I’m not going as far as I used to based on the fact that I haven’t been feeling very well, but I’m still eating right and I guess that’s all that matters.  I’ve managed to master an 800 calorie diet, and I’m still working hard on losing about 1000 calories a day.  My water intake has gone up, my crystal light intake has gone down.  While I love the flavors, the plain water is equally as tasty for me now that I’ve found a brand of water that I’m content with.  Deer Park has the best taste out of all of the water I’ve been consuming over the course of the last few months.  I’m down another couple of pounds, I’ll get around to updating the sidebar sometime soon.

Guess I should get myself ready for bed.  I’m a few hours behind on my schedule but I’ll make up for it tomorrow I’m sure.